Agony
I was told to pray,
For Christ died for my sins.
I tried, but nothing happened.
Somebody lied to me.
I was told to be a man,
Told not to fear,
Yet still I wept, and I felt great comfort.
Somebody lied to me.
This beautiful life? I disagree.
The joys of life?
Ha!
Somebody lied to me.
They said I was weird,
That my cryptic verses weren't right,
But black is a color, too.
Somebody lied to me.
"Be not so cold-hearted," they said.
I sadly let them in.
My soul, raped! My mind, pillaged!
My trust, nothing!
How could I love,
So detached and alone,
Hiding in the shadows?
Somebody lied to me.
To feel much better
Is to get more sleep?
I tried, but it just brought more ghastly nightmares,
And those of a dead girl holding a bloody doll
Outside my window weren't just an illusion,
For the girl spoke,
And I awoke with bloodied hands.
Somebody lied to me.
Ecstasy
"Speak not so morbid," they said.
"Spend not so much time in the dark."
I lit some black candles and brightened my entire life.
I bowed to the glare of the sunset
And anticipated the rise of the moon
And the dance of midnight shadows.
Be not scared of the daylight?
Somebody lied to me.
They said the snows of winter cause problems,
But I saw how clean and crisp the earth became
And felt how easily my breath flowed.
So I sought the cold
To find warm peace within it;
A lonely flame's soft glow
Amid the howling frigid wind,
The silent stars near enough to grasp,
Tears crystallizing as they fell.
Somebody lied to me.
Requiem
Flowers were accepted,
So I brought a single black rose.
I got a slap in the face in return.
They said I shouldn't touch the body,
So I kissed her pale lips one last time,
And my mind was made to be calm.
Somebody lied to me.
"Alone in a cemetery is not
A good way to spend one's free time," they said,
But when I did I felt more human.
I was told that she was dead,
But with my fingers on her gravestone,
I whispered to her, and I felt her reply.
For once rest came quickly that evening.
Somebody lied to me.
Epilogue
Since early in my life
I was told that I could fly,
So I leapt just to see if they were right...
And nobody cried for me.
Hidden Secrets
by chris
Motionless and fleshless
With hollow eyes and constant grins
My companions greeted me daily.
No eyes to see with, no voice to speak with
No ears to hear with and no life to live with.
I hated those skeletons, fragments of life gone by
They were my hidden secrets,
Their presence repulsed me and
I concealed them from the world.
I tried not to look at them, to hide,
To dress them in dreams...
Their hideousness still crept through.
Tears from empty eyes, cries from silent mouths,
Oblivious to my screams and sapping me of
My strenth, they demanded my attention.
The winter came and wanting to see no more
I wrapped my skeletons in a blanket of denial and
Defiantly locked them in a small dark room.
The wind howled through that winter of my life,
Bringing with it an odious smell.
The door began to crack, my house grew cold
As the chill from that door took its hold.
I padded the gaps, still the wind blew, there
Was no way through and the door began to crack.
I tried in vain to plaster those open wounds,
They refused to heal, the door heaved,
The wind screamed and I boarded up that door.
After time....my house grew quiet and
The sun began to shine
No skeletons in my cupboard
Love and happiness were all mine...
And in my haste I hacked down the door
I'd escaped that living hell
To find my hidden secrets..
Very much alive and well.
Holding You
by chris
In my dreams, I can feel
your lips pressing mine,
taste the sweetness
of your kiss.
Holding you in my arms,
touching your soft skin,
under a harvest moon,
shining in our eyes.
Hoping one day
my dreams will be real,
my life will be complete;
with you loving me.
You and me
by chris
"When I first saw you
I was afraid to like you,
when I liked you
I was afraid to love you,
now that I love you
I am afraid to lose you
To be loved by someone is something,
but to be loved by the one U Love is Everything.
Hugs
By Chris
There's something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart;
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part.
A hug's a way to share the joy
And sad times we go through,
Or just a way for friends to say
They like you 'cause you're you.
Hugs are meant for anyone
For whom we really care,
From your grandma to your neighbor,
Or a cuddly teddy bear.
A hug is an amazing thing -
It's just the perfect way
To show the love we're feeling
But can't find the words to say
It's funny how a little hug
Makes everyone feel good;
In every place and language,
It's always understood.
And hugs don't need new equipment,
Special batteries or parts -
Just open up your arms
And open up your hearts.
I CAN'T WAIT
by chris
Sometimes words are unspoken
Which need to be told
And deep down I was hoping
My emotions would hold
But the stronger they got
The harder I fell
I guess I like you a lot
If you couldn't already tell
It's like every little thing you do
Brings a smile to my face
I can't help but stare at you
And welcome your embrace
I think of you every day
Even when you're around
I never felt this way
You picked me up when I was down
The chills you bring are unspeakable
The way you make me melt inside
Do you know you're so incredible?
You gave me reason not to hide
If I could talk forever
I'd say how you make me feel
I promise I'll keep us together
For as long as you can deal
My heart beats for only you
With every passing hour
I promise I'll always be true
Boy, you have this power
I love your touch
Your warm and subtle stare
Your words and such
And you always being there
I know I can count on you
Through good times and bad
And so I know a thing or two
And, Baby, I am glad
If we had never met
I don't exactly know where I'd be
I live with no regret
Having you here by me
I give my hand to you
With all my heart
I can't wait to live my life with you
I can't wait to start
I Love You
By Chris
You're kissable and cuddly;
You're lovable and sweet;
You thrill me every minute,
And sweep me off my feet.
You're charming and disarming,
Desirable and true.
You inspire and impress me,
And that's why I love you!
I MISS YOU
By Chris
To see you when I wake up,
is a gift I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same,
as I do, is a Three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line, if I said
I miss you.
I see your picture, I smell your skin on,
the empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone ten days,
but already I am wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know, that I care
And I miss you
I need you
by chris
I seem to think about you day and night.
This feeling I have for you, just feels right.
I fall asleep wanting to hold you tight,
once i have you, I won't let go without a fight.
I've felt this way from the vary start,
You're the only one who holds my heart.
I see your pain knowing in my heart
I can make you go away.
This feeling I have for you is peaceful bliss
if I don't take chances, I'm afraid I'm going to miss.
I'm trying to tell you, we're meant to be,
you can't tell me you do not see.
How do I confront you with my love so dear,
a love you can find only here?
Maybe if you read this poem, and know I care,
but my life without wouldn't be fair.
I wish
By Chris
I wish I were a teddy bear,
Lying on your bed,
And every time you cuddled it,
You cuddled me instead.
If I Asked
by chris
if i ask you to make love to me
touch my heart, set me free
spare my soul the lovers pain
make me feel true love again
touch my lips....smooth my hair
prove to me your love is there
lay with me side by side
forever in my love abide
slowly we will greet the dawn
promise me your love is strong
if i ask you to make love to me
hold me close, be one with me
IN A MINUTE
By Chris
QUESTION?
HOW LONG IS A MINUTE?
WAIT DON'T SPEAK!
FOR IN THE TIME IT TAKES YOU TO ANSWER
I COULD HAVE STARTED YOUR BATH WATER
MASSAGED YOUR BACK
LIFTED YOUR SPIRITS AND LAID YOU DOWN
WHISPERED A SWEET WORD
YELLED OUT TO THE WORLD MY FEELINGS FOR YOU
RUBBED YOUR ACHING FEET
LIT A CANDLE FOR YOUR LOVE
ORDERED YOU ROSES
MADE DINNER RESERVATIONS FOR TWO!
JUST ME AND YOU.
IN A MINUTE
I COULD REFRESH YOUR SOUL WITH A LI'L MUSIC
LUTHER VANDROS, GERALD LAVERT, JOHNNY GILL
HERE AND NOW, BABY HOLD ON TO ME, MY MY MY MY MY
IN A MINUTE I COULD BREATHE NEW LIGHT INTO THE DARK HALLWAYS
OF YOUR HEART, AND POLISH THE DULL BRASS OF YOUR EMOTIONS.
I COULD RUN MY FINGERS THRU YOUR HAIR AND RUB YOUR BODY WITH
LOTION.
YOU SEE IT REALLY ONLY TAKES A MINUTE
BUT THE QUESTION IS WHEN CAN I HAVE MY MINUTE WITH YOU?
In my dreams
by Chris
In my dreams, you hold me tight,
making love til morning light.
Holding me close with all your might.
In my dreams, pleasures are shared,
passionate desires never rare.
As close to extreme as we dare.
In my dreams, we share each day.
Facing obstacles thrown our way,
together, forever come what may.
In my dreams, our love is true,
eternally binding me and you.
Something found by very few.
In my dreams........
I am with you.
Just For You
by chris
tonight i sit
wondering....
as the wind whispers
your name ..
has been a while
since I saw your face ..
with a smile
bright as a star...
Oh how I wish
you weren't so far.
closing my eyes
dreaming of you
hoping you are
happy too.
someday soon
I will be there,
to share a hug
and see you smile..
even if only for
a short while.
Kiss me
By Chris
Kiss me as you say goodbye...
Kiss me when you say hi!
Kiss me and we'll forever be...
Kiss me and you will see...
Kiss me in the morning sun...
Kiss me as no other one...
Kiss me and tell me of your love...
Kiss me, my sweet angel from above...
Kiss me, embrace me, don't let go...
Kiss me, make me smile and you'll know
That kisses are heaven sent.
Love, Kindness to thee be meant...
Life
By Chris
Ever wonder why life deals you the worst possible hand?
In a room full of seats, you're left to stand.
Trying to grasp on to life but you fall behind,
All crazy things keep on running through your mind.
Feeling suicidal reaching out for hope,
Keep hearing you're a loser and you're learning how to cope.
Walking down a road but don't know where to turn,
Crowds of people by a flame and you're the only one to burn.
Screaming out for help and no one hears your call,
Trying to stand up, but you just continue to fall.
Slowly urging the pain to just go away,
Crying for it to just go but it continues to stay.
Keep on feeling confused and trying to understand why,
You know you're alive but you wish you would die.
Can't seem to understand the things that keep happening to
you,
Wanting only an explanation for the things you do.
You feel like running away but you can't seem to move,
You keep giving yourself reasons to live
But there's nothing more to prove.
Lacking any self respect you ever had,
Wanting so much to understand but blocked by your inner self.
Thinking of death and wishing you would die,
Saying hello to the world when you really want to say bye.
Magic
by chris
A shadow in the sunlight,
a leaf upon a tree,
A spider in a silk web,
weaving so intricately.
A raindrop in a storm cloud,
the plume upon a dove,
Chocolate in a valetine,
inscribed with silver--"love"...
A four leaf clover in a clover patch,
a black sky and a single star,
Within my heart and to my soul,
these are the things you are.
Making Love
by chris
We are alone in this room - just you and I
As we stand together I place my hand on your thigh
Our passions are buliding - we both know what's next
We are about to make love - hot passionate sex.
The room is lit up only by candles
And our burning passion, I can no longer handle.
The music is playing romantic melodies
The sheets on the bed are soft and silky
There's rose petals scattered all over the bed
It is the perfect setting for the night ahead.
I step towards you and I kiss your neck
You throw your head back at the feel of my peck.
Then I place a kiss on your cheek
As you whisper to me that your knees just got weak.
So I lay you down and I just stand and stare
You're now only in your bra and underwear
On the silky sheets you tell me it feels so nice
So I climb into bed with you and with my mouth I entice
May I Kiss You?
by chris
I ask if I may kiss you.
You just smile; no answer is necessary.
My initial kiss is just a flirting of our lips.
My tongue lightly flicking -
Like I am asking, "Do you want me?"
The tip of my tongue runs all around your lips.
Touching every part,
Inside and out -
Over and over again.
Tickling you, tickle, tickle, goes my tongue.
Now I press my lips gently to yours.
Rubbing your lips back and forth against mine.
My kisses are hot and fast.
I cannot rest long in any one place.
I have such a need to go on.
I trail kisses of passion all over your face.
Then back to your mouth.
Our tongues dance together.
We are exploring.
I circle your tongue with the tip of mine.
You echo the pattern back to me.
I lick the sides, underside and the top.
You echo back.
I suck your lower lip.
You echo back.
We repeat, repeat, repeat.
The sensations are driving our emotions.
We are wild for each other.
You thrust your tongue in and out.
The movements are rhythmic and stabbing.
Simulating our love making during mating.
I ask again, do you want me?
I can tell that you do.
No words are necessary.
my dream of us
by chris
and on the shoreline of my dreams
i will find you standing there---
naked, against the storming sky,
the waves crashing over your body,
and your hair
falling in wet curls
across your cheek.
you will bathe with me
in the ocean;
dance with me in the wind,
make love to me in the raging storm.
and i will love you there.
when on the shoreline of my dreams
i find you standing there,
i will run to you
in dream-like softness.
and i will love you there.
(would that i were the one
who holds your heart)
My love for you
by chris
As time passes, our love has grown
I believe it is a love most people have never known
I know for me this is true
I have never loved someone as I do you
Sometimes my feelings get mixed
Wondering what in our life will be next
Then I look very deep inside
And know this is a love I can't hide
Will our love always be this way
That is my hope, to have many special days
To find new things about each other
That will make us smile and laugh
To always have a love like no other
As months grow into years
I want your touch to always set me on fire,
As it does now, for you are so dear
You are in my every thought, dream, and desire
With all the trouble throughout my life
I have now found it is never too late in life
To find that special love
One, I believe, we had help with from luck
I write this to let you know I care,
That I want to be with you
Most of all just to have the things we share
For all the things that you, and only you, do
Everything that you do for me
From little things to important things
Allows me through my eyes to see
How much happiness your love brings
Nothing but I am
By Chris
I feel like Im nothing
Praying to be something
I know Im worthless
Hoping to mean something
I beg to be released,
Released from this life
Wishing to become something
But my wish isnt worth anything
Im not worth enough
To become something,
I had the will
But something killed it,
Made me become nothing
Now I want to stay there forever
So lonely, but still so peaceful...
One Day You'll See
by chris
The first time I saw you,
I knew you were the one.
There was no question in my mind,
after having that much fun.
There's just something about you,
that I've never found before.
And now that we're good friends,
I find myself wanting more.
I never thought it possible,
to care for one so much.
But everyday that passes,
I long to feel your touch.
To look into your eyes,
would make my day complete,
cause every time you look at me,
my heart just skips a beat.
Everything I'd wished for,
every dream I'd hope come true,
I never thought would happen,
until the day that I met you.
I know that your not ready,
for the kind of commitment that I am,
but for you I'd wait forever,
there's nothing I can't stand.
Although it hurts to know,
that you don't feel the same as me,
hopefully one day you'll realize,
one day you'll wake up and see.
Only One
by chris
When I close my eyes,
you're the only one I see,
I think about you all the time I breathe,
Please say you'll be with me...
Without you I cry.
Only knowing your name...
Makes me want to die.
Please don't say you'll ever leave me.
Don't like being without me...
Say you miss me.
Close your eyes and feel my touch.
Call me and I'll come.
I do care,
I hate not knowing you,
I hate the thought of you being with anyone but me.
I want you so much,
You don't know.
My body calls your name...
You're everywhere I go.
And everybody knows
I'll Swallow all my pride...
To be by your side,
Only with you I want to be.
Only you I want to see,
Only 'cause I of you, I breathe.
Pain in my heart
by chris
This pain in my heart
kills me and won't ever go.
This pain in my heart
is like a thorn on a rose.
These tears down my cheek
tear me apart and they tell you
that without you I just cannot live,
because my heart screams out loud that I LOVE YOU,
Pinch me
By Chris
My eyes spill and my heart swells
As I am away from you
My mind fills with thoughts
Of seeing your beautiful face again
My cheeks ache from all that smiling
A constant reminder of that short eternity
We spent intertwined
Arms, legs, lips, minds, souls
Locked together
I daydream of those eyes gazing up at me
Immediately, it all comes rushing back
Infatuation, fascination, sheer amazement
I'm back in the real world
Came up for air
Keep longing
For that warm, dark, comfortable heaven
Your arms wrapped so tightly
I can hardly fill my lungs
My face buried in your neck
Breathing you in
Air, I need not
Bursts of emotion
Ignited by eye contact
I keep telling myself I must be dreaming
Pinch me.
Questions on my mind
by chris
I go to sleep every night with questions on my mind.
The questions run around constantly, but no answers can I
find
The answers I should know but I don't.
It would be easier if they answered themselves, but they won't.
So what am I left to do,
But search until I do
Find the answerw to the questions to which I have no clue
Questions which were brought to mind because of you,
But this you never knew
The questions you placed in my mind,
But the answers are for me alone to find.
Real Friends
by chris
You make it alright to smile,
But for how long, I'm not sure.
It will take some time, it'll be a while.
I might be right...
Could be wrong...
But no matter what happens,
Time will still roll on.
In my mind plays the same slow song.
What it is, I can't say,
But maybe I will some day.
Right now everything seems so right,
Yet feels so wrong.
So I sit here tonight,
It feels so long.
I can't take it any more,
But I still can't open the door
To something new...
Something true.
The passing of days...
I've tried so many ways.
I feel like I'm standing in a maze.
I scream and I shout,
But still I can't find my way out.
I need one to help me through,
For this is something that I have to do,
Not by myself... not alone.
I'm so glad you're my friend,
Cause you've helped me once again,
Helped me through the pain and sorrow.
Don't leave me now,
Please stay with me till tomorrow.
So as blind as I may be,
I will always recognize thee
As someone close to me,
A real friend.
She is my new best friend
by chris
She is my new best friend
She's better than the rest
She makes all the better things better
And the better, best
She is always there for me
When I need her most
She's not high on herself
She doesn't brag or boast
Sure, we both have problems
Similar in size
But we are there for each other
Just to sympathize
When everything goes wrong
And it seems like no one cares
She is always there
To wipe away the tears
I do my best to help her
I try with all my might
To make her world a better place
To make it all seem right
Each of us thanks the other
For all that we have done
And how just by being a friend
Life is much more fun
Some kisses are just kisses,
By Chris
Some kisses are just kisses
Other kisses are real,
Kissing the one you love,
Oh, how good it feels.
Even with the one you love,
Sometimes, disagreements appear,
Working out your differences
Happens; if both are sincere.
The magic in your kisses are
More than words will ever say,
They tell your love you're
Sorry; in an unspoken way.
Sorry I Wasted Your Time!
By CHRIS
They say what doesn't kill you
Makes you all the stronger.
But I have to say good-bye...
I can't take it any longer.
I do everything wrong,
Not one single thing right.
As I lie on my bed
Knowing this is my last night.
Too much pain...
Without a will.
I will give up my space on Earth
And give it to someone that doesn't make you ill.
I am sorry I didn't please you
And never made you glad.
I apologize for taking up your time,
And for always making you mad.
I tried everything I could,
But I can't try anymore...
My life is like one
Never-ending war.
.
My life is at its end
Yours will only improve.
Don't say a word,
I wouldn't want you to move.
So to anyone out there,
Not that you care,
Try to find out...
Why God made my life so unfair.
Soul mates or Something more
by chris
When we speak of soul mates
do we not really mean
heart, mind and soul mates.
Because, would we really want someone
who only loved us for part of the whole.
I think a soul mate is someone who sees the flaws,
yet, loves you more for them,
as they define who you are,
and who always look below... for the beauty,
instead of judging by the shell.
They see our weaknesses but never take advantage.
Instead, they lend strength when needed,
without being intrusive. They are our companions
while letting us still be ourselves,
and giving us room to grow.
It's someone who, while not sharing all your interests,
will respect yours and try to keep a open mind... always.
But most of all a soul mate is someone to trust
with your most precious gift and trust
that you, also, will keep it safe for them..
your love, and theirs.
Soul Mates...
By Chris
You are my heartbeat.
You are my strength.
You are the only true love I know.
I am yours until the end.
You saved me from all of my heartache,
You wiped away my tears.
You kissed away the bad dreams
And blew away my fears.
Sometimes I wonder what I did to deserve you.
To know you is a mystery.
To hold you, my one true wish.
And to kiss your lips so softly, Oh
YOU are what true love is.
Others cant understand it,
How we fell so fast.
Showing all people,
That our love overcomes our pasts.
So now it comes time,
To prove this love so true.
Test after test, we show others
That were stronger together,
Stronger than we ever knew.
You are my other half,
The missing link of me.
You complete my soul,
Like no other can ever be.
SOULMATES
By Chris
I'm glad I found you,
Like you there's only a few,
My love for you is so strong,
If loving you is right then
I don't want to go wrong.
You're the one to bring a smile to my face,
You're the one who makes my heart race.
I crave for your touch,
I crave for the warmth of your body so much.
I want our souls together,
I want to have you in my life forever.
Please don't leave me,
You're the only one in my life I see.
I pray for the day to come,
Depressing days without you there's some.
Please let me feel the warmth and tingle
Of your breath,
For that one moment I would even consider death.
Take Me To A Dream
by chris
Take me to a dream
That I never dreamed of,
To a place so beautiful
That we can stay for eternity,
A dream that seems to be
More real than real life
A dream of no problems or worries.
Take me to a dream
A place for just the two of us,
Where we can express our inner
most thoughts, feelings, and emotions,
To a beautiful land where nobody
Is there but just the two of us.
Take me to a dream
A dream where I can have fun,
Where I am not being fused or abused at
Controlled or being yelled at,
To a beautiful place that I can lay at
In peace where I can think at,
Where I will have no worries
and do nothing but dream.
Take me to a dream.....
Tears
by chris
I cry for you
When I'm all alone at night
I cry for you
when you don't hold me tight
I cry for you
when I see you with him
I cry for you
I thought I'd be the one you'd prefer
I think of you
when you don't think of me
I think of you
and try to make you see
I think of you
when you're walking with him
I think of you
I thought I'd be the one you'd prefer
My tears are falling
they're falling real hard
My tears are falling
they're going real far
My tears are falling
when you're walking with him
My tears are falling
I thought I'd be the one you'd prefer
I'm not over you
I'm so sick of hurting
I'm not over you
So why do you keep flirting?
I'm not over you
When your walking with him
I'm not over you
I thought I'd be the one you'd prefer
THE END
by chris
Come inside my world
Describe what you see
It won't be long
You'll be on your knees
Begging to leave
There's no escape
Once you're here,
It's a constant rape
HOW LONG WILL IT LAST???
This pain and torment
It's a never ending disease
Someone's got to help me
Please, I beg you, please
No one hears my silent screams
Maybe they just don't care
Trampled like a back door rug
Too much wear and tear
The time has drawn near
The choice I must make
No one dares to stop me now
It's my life that I must take.
The Moment Of A Kiss
By Chris
My heart is beating so strongly
That I think it's going to burst;
Standing near my one and only,
for true love my heart does thirst.
I can't believe you're with me now,
My fingers entwined with yours;
A moment where I've longed to allow
My heart to run its course.
There's not a sound I can hear,
All things around me are blocked out;
My focus is only you, so near,
A love I know I can't do without.
With only inches between our lips
I feel your breath upon my cheek;
From my head to toes, to fingertips,
Pure excitement makes me weak.
Closer, slowly, now our mouths move
As I bring my lips to yours;
The gentle touch that now does prove,
The love from my heart that pours.
This moment frozen here in time,
Your kiss that's pure serenity;
I pray that I can make you mine,
For now and all eternity.
The ones who have it hardest
By Chris
The ones who have it hardest
Are the ones whose lives look the easiest?
Easy to please..
Nothing to bother
Plenty to hide
Left only to smother
In their secrets
In their lies
They look so happy
Except in their eyes
You can see their pain
You can see their fears
But to them nothing can fall
Not even their tears
Thinking of You
by chris
As I lay here,
Thinking of you.
All my thoughts,
Gray and Blue.
I wish I could see you,
I wish I could.
Then maybe my life,
Could be understood.
But, still Im down
and Thinking Of You.
Hoping you love me,
Like I love you.
Thorn in my life
bychris
Thorn In My Life
I clutch the stem, tighter, tighter,
And shut my eyes to the world.
My blood stains the leaves, darker, darker,
Red as the Rose, red as the light.
My tears fall, faster, faster,
I gasp, because it hurts.
My heart beats, harder, harder,
Painfully pierced by a Thorn.
I open my eyes, slowly, slowly,
But everything looks the same.
And the Rose is still so lovely, lovely,
The blood will dry, the tears will dry,
And Life Will Go On.
To Hope, To Dream, To Live
by chris
To hope is to hurt,
To dream is to suffer.
To live without love,
Is why we hurt one another.
To hope is to cause,
A pain that is great,
To believe through and through,
That there is a thing called fate.
To dream is to be human,
And feel to it in your heart,
That your dream will come true,
Even if you and love are apart.
To live is to die,
Which we all must do,
But to live without love,
Is to never see truth.
To Put It Simply, I Want You
By Chris
I want to be your lover
And walk hand in hand,
Your strength over coming mine.
Autumn leaves falling,
Scuffing feet and laughter,
Sharing nights, not finished by the dark.
I want to be your confidant
As you pen your deepest
Thoughts, as your heartaches
Bleed and finally break free.
Your dreams, I keep as if my own.
I want to smile as you smile
And giggle with you
At nothing at all.
I want to be your lover
And find the passions
That moves you to action.
I want to be the softness
That induces you to trust.
I want to be the naughty
That makes you come back for more.
I want to please you.
I want to share your breakfast
And your dinner,
I want you in the shower
And in your bed and
With soft steps to bring you coffee
(I take mine black)
Your strong arms, the legs
That powers your thrust,
Your lips of pleasure,
These are the fuel of my desire
No it is no secret, my love,
And to put it very simply,
I want you.
Touch Me
By Chris
Touch me so I can taste the sweetness of your kiss
Touch me so my soul can indulge in the sweet bliss
A kiss that if lost would be missed forever
A kiss that my soul would beg to stop, never
Touch me so I can feel the warmth of your embrace
Touch me so I can feel the softness of your face
An embrace that will keep me forever in your arms
An embrace that will enslave me with its tender charm
Touch me so I can feel it in my soul
Touch me and forever chase away the cold
Make the fire in my soul burn forever bright
A raging fire to enlighten my darkest night
Touch me so I can feel an angel's touch
Touch me for I want to love you so much
Make my soul tremble with a taste of your kiss
Touch me and forevermore lead my soul amiss
Touch me...please
What can i say?
By Chris
I can't say you'll never be hurt.
That promise is already ruined.
The devil spun his web
And of course i fell into it.
I can't say Ill never leave you
For death is a tricky thing.
I don't know when i might fall
And catch a poisonous sting.
I won't say Ill always make you happy.
It won't be easy to live with me,
But a lie Ill never give.
The truth is all you'll ever see.
I will say that Ill do my best
To keep you happy when i can.
When trouble comes between us;
I promise- together we'll stand.
And i can say that i know my heart.
It breaks thinking of thoughts with out you.
And when I think of you in my sleep.
I'll whisper out- "I will always love you so deeply."
What I Feel
by chris
My body trembles
My knees begin to shake
My heart beats faster
My hands shiver and quake
My head begins to sweat
My muscles get cold chills
My palms get clammy
My touch is numb to anything it feels
My throat chokes up
My voice begins to crack
My jaw drops to the ground
My soul seems to know what it lacks
My memories come back to me
My feelings turn out to be real
My thoughts are all about you
My emotions are "What I Feel."
What I Now Realize
By Chris
Lately I realize, what I missed out on
It took me a long time to know,
How much I care, and miss you.
It took me a long time to know,
That the fear was gone, and so were you.
It took me a long time to know,
What I missed out on, and what I could of had.
It took me a long time to know,
How beautiful you are, and how amazing.
It took me a long time to know,
That you were the first person I loved, love.
It took me a long time to know,
That I will love you, and wait for you.
It took me a long time to know,
What my heart already knew.
What is love?
by Chris
What is love?
Anyone know?
Well, it is a feeling
That everyone should show.
The word means nothing,
If you dont have a certain something.
I hate the word love, it has brought me nothing but pain.
But I think one day it will be something I gain.
The word gets thrown around, like a ball in a park.
People dont realize that there is a meaning to the word.
You dont just say it to be absurd.
Oh, I love you.
Do you really?
Cause last week, I think you told Willie!
That is why marriages dont last as long as they used to,
No one knows whom he or she loves!
I love you.
Do you?
Cause I am here alone with a baby, on welfare!
You cant blame the government there,
Ive tried, it just isnt fair.
It has to be those people who say the word,
But dont have the feelings to make it work.
Ive said it,
yes thats true.
But I meant it, and I still do.
I hope this makes you think
Before you say it again,
Cause you never know when it will all end.
What You Make Me Feel
By Chris
When I saw you, you took my breath away,
Feeling a jumble of emotions I knew were here to stay.
I feel the butterflies, the tingly feeling inside,
Theres so much excitement you bring into my life.
Everyday I wonder what it would be like,
To be caressed in your arms, to be held on to tight.
To kiss youre lips, to hear your voice whispered in my ear,
To hear the three magic words I so long to hear.
Your gleaming smile, your mythical eyes, your stimulating
physique,
Makes me realize how much of you I want to have and keep.
To share a laugh, to share a hand, to share a gentle kiss,
Is to share our heart and soul in our collective bliss.
I'd wait for you forever, patiently I'd stand,
'Till the day arrives, when you'd come and take my hand.
When you'd whisper you love me, giving me a goodnight kiss,
Speaking not with your mouth, but with your heart,
Knowing that there's nothing better than this.
What you mean to me
By Chris
Some things are hard to say,
But they have to be said.
When you smile it brightens my day,
It makes me happy knowing that you're happy.
When I see you my heart stops,
The way that you look at me leaves me breathless.
When you talk to me I am at a loss of words,
It seems that sometimes you are speechless.
Ive never really felt this way before,
There is something about you.
Its easier to talk to you than most,
There are just some things I dont get yet.
I think that its love, can it be true,
Has this feeling come over you?
Life has been great since youve been around.
I wish that things could stay like this,
But things always change.
Some are for the good and some for the bad,
I just hope its always for the good of things.
Whenever I hear your voice it makes me feel better,
It helps to rid most my fears.
Theres no one else that can do that,
That must be why I love you so!
wheres your god
by chris
There was a time
That I tried to talk to Jesus,
But he told me
To leave him alone.
I was shunned by your lord
And accepted by mine,
Though I'll never bow to anyone,
And I'll always cast the first stone.
He made me lie down
In green pastures,
He drowned me
In still waters,
Then he placed his bloody crown
Upon my head,
Suffocated me,
And so did make me suffer.
So I ask of all of you now,
All good Christians,
All Jesus' whores,
Why feed your kids the lies,
The cruelty,
The hypocrisy,
The cult-like fanaticism
Of a man called Jesus Christ?
Trust me, father, for you have sinned,
And if I believed in such a place,
I'd rather rot in hell
Than spend eternity with you.
I am not lost,
Nor do I need to be found.
So go ahead, I dare you convert me;
The one needing saving will be you.
On your kitchen wall
Hangs a verse from
The book of lies you believe in.
You've got a plastic virgin on your dashboard,
Assuring you that
You'll be protected
When you're tailgating,
And that you'll be saved forevermore.
Come every Thursday night,
On your way home,
Mary reminds you
To confess your deepest sins
So the priest can beat off
Next to you in the confessional.
But come Saturday night,
You'll be sinning again.
You've got a golden cross
Around your scrawny neck,
In hopes you'll be just like Christ.
Yeah, maybe you'll be crucified.
You live in fear
Of those who aren't like you,
But don't worry, you'll be safe
Among his mindless sheep only after you have died.
You see, you're living in the shadows
Of an old, dead religion,
And you only get it if you're fed it.
So when Jesus says jump, you ask how high,
But did you ever stop to think,
To question the commander,
To say no,
Or even bother to ask why?
So where is your god,
You blasphemous whore?
Not in your churches and not on this Earth.
He's a figment of your clouded imagination only.
He's not in your Bibles,
Because, just remember,
Even the Devil
Can quote Scripture to fill His black needs.
Why Love Is Never Fair
By Chris
What goes around comes around
that's what you always hear
Now you know for a fact
that it's true cause the person you love is not near
Remember once when someone
loved you and you just pushed them away
Look who's the one laying down alone
now with nothing else to say
You had your fun and played your game
I hope it was worth the whole ten minutes of fame
Act like your self you shouldn't change
in front of any of your friends
Cause even they know that you'll be the one
hurting at the end
why us
by chris
Why do we try to fix the blame?
it isn't our fault, anyway.
our only mistake was letting
our vain hearts have their way.
we made promises and swore vows
that were meant for you and me,
both of us struggling to preserve,
a love never meant to be,
a love with a dark future,
a love full of scary uncertainty,
a love that should have never happened.
that kind of love you loved me,
it's no surprise that tears fall,
our hearts are meant to be broken.
a love with no future at all,
we should never even have spoken,
yet we struggled on with our love,
we worked to make things okay,
we blissfully ignored everything,
what everyone had to say.
we wanted things to work out,
so we tried and tried like crazy,
trying to save a love,
a love that was never meant to be...
Wishing
by chris
I sit here day and night
Wishing with all my might
That one day you will see
How much you mean to me
You're like an angel sent from above
And I want you to trust me with your love
I don't see you everyday
But you're in my heart anyway
You're gentle, kind, and sweet
And I'm praying the next day we meet
You'll fall in love with me
And then you'll finally see
What I've been feeling all this time
Wishing you were mine.
Without
By Chris
Without you without my eyes
How would I see your beautiful face?
Without my ears
How would I hear your sweet voice?
Without my lips
How would I feel your amazing kisses?
Without my voice
How would I sing to you?
Without my arms
How would I hold you?
Without my fingers
How would I touch your warmth face?
Without my legs
How would I run to you?
Without my mind
How would I dream of you?
Without my heart
How would I love you?
Where would I be?
Why I'm Here
by chris
I know that you are going through a hard time,
I wish I could be there with you.
I know how it must feel,
Because I have been through hard times too.
I know the feelings feel like,
They are more than you can bear.
That's why I want to let you know,
There is someone here who cares.
I may not be in the room next door,
Or even in your town,
But whenever you feel lonely,
I am all around.
Whenever you feel like nobody cares,
I care for you more then u know!
Whenever you feel like no one loves you,
I love you more then you know!
Whenever you need a hug,
I will give you the biggest hug you can take!
Whenever you need to talk,
I will listen with all my heart!
And whenever you need someone to get your spirits up,
I will try with all my strengh to make your spirts uprise.
You Are
by chris
You are my guiding star showing me the way
To a perfect world together
Your eyes are two stars shining in the bright of day
You are the girl I want to be with forever
You are the one I pray for
I pray and thank God for you
I have all I ever wanted, and more
All of my wishes have come true
You are the only one I love
Deceit is something I will never do
You are the one that im always thinking of
No one else could ever replace you
You are the greatest treasure
That any one could ever find
And I'm the richest man
Because the you are mine
You are too good to be true
You are perfect in every way
I could not bear to live life without you
I will love you every night and day
You are so good to me
You love me and always care
You help me up when I'm off my feet
When I need you, you are always there
You are so special and I love you
And I want you to know
Never will I leave you
You are too perfect to let go
You Should Know
By Chris
Electricity and lightening
Running through my veins-
Ever since that moment,
I haven't been the same.
The heat your touch sends through me
Could set my heart on fire.
Every second spent lost in your eyes
Takes me soaring that much higher.
I can't explain the feeling
That your sweetness gives to me,
And there's so much more inside you
That I have yet to see.
The way you looked at me
Like you just might even care
Got me caught and then I fought
Not to hold your stare.
But everything about you
Leaves me wanting more,
And it's everything about you
That I can't help but adore.
So much passion in your being
Makes me wish that I could feel
The power in your existence
That makes you beautiful and real.
I don't know what you're thinking
Of things between us two,
But I know whatever happens
You'll still be the same great you.
Nothing makes me question
Why I feel this way,
You're all that I can think of
Every second of the day.
Each glance and touch you gave me
Meant more than you could know,
But I don't know your feelings,
I don't know how much to show.
I hope that you can luv me
In some way, somehow,
And in your gentle heart somewhere,
My luv you can allow.
If this is too much to say so soon,
I'll calm down and take it slow,
But I just have all these feelings
And I thought that you should know.
You
By Chris
Lost in you
Is how i strongly feel?
I don't show you
Because i don't know
If my feelings are real.
You loving me
But me not knowing if I can love you
Confuses my heart
Because I don't know what to do.
You showed the love for me
That you had for so long
But me loving you back
Is the part that's going wrong?
How am I supposed to tell someone?
Something that's hard to explain
Without telling you
Just brings my heart more pain.
I've tried to say
That I'd rather be your friend
The kind of relationship
That, for sure, will never end.
I don't know how to say this
But I hope you'll understand
That you can be my friend
But just not... my woman.
Sorry but my feeling are not the same
Your tender touch
by chris
I feel your tender touch,
your fingers running through my skin and soul.
I feel your tender lips,
as they kiss my shoulder and my heart they stole.
I feel your constant stare
and your eyes as passionately at me they glare.
I feel your precious hand holding mine,
and your craving body locked to mine.
My arms are hungry and search for you
and when they finally feel you and hold you tight,
I'm sure I'll be dreaming of you all through the night,
because I know I have you and you know you have me.